If it's Missing

If it's Missing
I am going to share something that was revealed to me today. It is something that has colored my entire life and I had no idea what it had done until today. I am not posting this as a poor me nore do I wish to attack those who did not realise that I needed this as much as I did. I want to share this with you today because many who read this may have children. And those children deserve better than failure. So do the spouses, both men and women.

What I am talking about is something that all people need whether adult or children makes no difference it is needed. Men especially need it from their wives or girl friends. Wives or girl friends need it from their man. In the case of children you will set the pace for the rest of there life based on this. Either they will have to overcome your failure or will succeed because of you lifting them to highest reaches of success. As a man I have found that I crave this more than you can imagine. I plead with YHVH to grant me a beloved wife.who is willing to do this small thing that all humanity needs on a daily basis.


This much needed thing is exhortation. That is to build up your children and or spouse.It is so easy to neglect it. Men are trained from day one to ignore the need. They are trained to do so not just from family but also from work environment. Men are never told when they are doing things right on the job. However the boss is quick to scream when things are not right. Personally every boss who is quick criticize and slow to exhort deserves to be fired and never work again. But that is not how it is going to be so wives exhort your husbands because their boss won't. Let them know that you believe in them. Even if they have just made a blunder that causes problems give them the benefit of the doubt. And let them know that just because they have revealed their humanity does not mean they are not still worth believing in. Tell him you are proud of him.

(If you don't beleive in your husband at all this is a deep issue please face it prayerfully and quickly)

A gal who trains people on how to succeed in home base business has this to say. YHVH told her that despite her success and her husbands lack of success she needed to treat him like he was the king of the house. She offered upon his success she would be happy to. YHVH told her that his success was based on her belief in him and treating him like he was already a huge success in her eyes. She did so in faith. Now he is a huge success and her business is even bigger than before because of his talents and abilities moving into her business and taking it places she never could have. Great people skills mixed with great add campaigns equals great paychecks in a home base business.

Husbands you need to do the same. I don't have a lot of in site here because I am not a woman but I am going to tell you what a few woman have told me. Let her know daily how beautiful she is to you. Make it a rule that daily you are going to let her know that you love her and you think she is beautiful.

(Husbands if you dont find your wife beautiful to you please face this in prayer and quickly.)

I am One

Prayer An Abomination?

Prayer An Abomination?

Not many things are labeled as an abomination. Homosexuality is one of the few. Murder is not an abomination. In the last weeks I have been asking why prayer is answered so little in America today. The answer of coarse was found in scripture.

Proverbs 28
9He who turns away his ear from hearing the Torah, Even his prayer is an abomination.


I realized just how much of my life still yet was based on "I will be forgiven" rather than me chasing obedience in love. My own prayer became an abomination in my own eyes. People care so little about obeying the bible it is as if this scripture didn't even exist.

Mat 5
17 do not think that i came to destroy the torah or the prophets. i did not come to destroy but to complete. 18“for truly, i say to you, till the heaven and the earth pass away, one jot or one tittle shall by no means pass from the torah till all be done.

There is no part of the bible greater than were Peter was given his vision. Which shows where christianity of today has turned away from the Torah by what we have done with the changes we have made to Acts 10. Acts 10 is well known as the part of the bible where Peter had his vision that we as christians have used to declare unclean animals as clean. It is my humble thoughts on this subject that Peter was the greatest judge of what this vision meant. Not me Not the pastor of a church but Peter Himself. That being said how did Peter interpret his own vision? The answer is found in Act 10:28


Acts 10
28And he said to them, “You know that a Yehuḏite man is not allowed to associate with, or go to one of another race. But Elohim has shown me that I should not call any man common or unclean.

Now here is the interesting thing about the bible. Eating of pig IS called an abomination Isaiah 66:17. The whole chapter of 66 has much to say about eating pig. It talks about how YHVH is angry with pig eaters. As I listened to this passage in Isaiah I realized that much of it is prophetic. It is talking about future events. Some of Isaiah talks about future events that have come to pass. But this was not talking about things that have been proven to have happened but rather it is talking about things that have not yet happened even today.
This really caught my attention because it asks this question. Is YHVH stupid? The answer of coarse is NO. Isaiah spoke what he was told about the events that have not happened. YHVH knew what He was going to tell Peter and how Peter would interpret it. You see YHVH is outside of time therefor He can see the beginning from the end. Meaning if He had told Peter go ahead eat pig, he would NOT have pronounced his anger through Isaiah in the old testament for something that has not happened yet in 2012. Please read these verses in prayer for understanding for yourself. I have left them out so that you will.

I think our focus needs to be on following His rules out of love with a desire for His blessings over us rather than to change the bible to mean things that are more comfortable to us. I personally would rather obey in error of something that was changed but I did not understand it than to error in disobedience for something that was NOT changed when I believed that it was. I feel that YHVH would honor misguided obedience more than ignorant disobedience. I want my prayer to be an abomination no more.

I am one.

I

Two ears and one mouth. My mother used to say that meant I was to do twice as much listening as talking. At the time I was angry at her for saying that because she was basically saying shut up and listen to me. But today I learned something and how it really pertains to those who want to be better christians. Have you ever had someone vent to you about something that was really going wrong in there life. And things are really falling apart for them. You will hear things like "I feel so alone" "I am unwanted" "I am a mess" "I am broken" There is a huge list of "I" that will come from this person who is really hurting. Here is my exhortation to you to give the friend what they need rather than what you think they need. Remember this Someone who is deeply hurting is most talking about hurt and frustration at how much of a failure they feel that they are at that moment. That does not mean that they are deeply questioning there faith. It does not mean that they overly doubt YHVH promise. It does not mean that they don't know just as much scripture as you do about what should be going on in their mind. All it means is that they are having a moment of absolute pain.


So what do you do for a friend who is saying things that really don't make sense for a christian to say? First use some common sense. Do you know this friend well enough to be able to say that they have a severe issue of biblical ignorance. If a person is truly a new christian who is hurting and you know they really don't know much about the bible true enough give it to them. But there are two other types of people to consider. The first one is maybe you don't know the person well enough to know how deeply they are in the bible. If that is the case you have an option or two. You can assume there are a fool and start quoting scripture that is relevant to the situation. But here is the problem. If you assume that they are biblically ignorant and you are wrong this person is going to feel that you just barfed bible on them. Yes scripture is always a good thing except when it not what is needed at that moment.

The next person is someone you know who is very steeped in the bible but at that moment they don't really sound like it. Again you can barf bible on them. But remember to them it still being barfed on. As you hear what this person is saying you think of all these scriptures that they seemingly don't know about. Here is the problem. They, two days ago already went through the entire bible to find the solution to their problem. And they may have found a few answers that they are in the process of working out. But they are still hurting.

This is the main question you need to ask yourself. Do you care about the situation they are in and can you handle it. If the answer is no be honest with this person and let them know you are not up for dealing with the problem. Don't half listen and fidget with your watch trying to escape. Just let this person know you are not able to deal with a situation of this magnitude. Tell them you are sorry, and you will pray that someone will come who is better equipped to face off with a situation like this. Next take some action. Try and find someone who can help them. When you do find that someone call your friend back and say "listen friend I know that I couldn't be what you needed me to be today. So I went through my list of contacts and I found someone who I think can do a better job of listening to you than I could. Can I give them your number?" If you do that your friend will not think low of you. He will think this. My friend realized his/her short coming and yet still cared enough to take action and try and find someone who can deal with my pain. They will be happy to have a friend that cares enough to be honest and helpful in the way that is best for them.

But maybe you are the person who cares and can deal with this painful situation that is being faced. If you don't know the person give the benefit of the doubt that they are a stronger christian than you and listen. You will find at some point they will give you a "tell". They will reveal if they are a solid christian who needed someone to just plain shut up and listen or if they are a new christian who really could use Biblical quotes. Remember if they have not bludgeoned themselves over the head with those verses you want to share it is NOT barfing on them. They need it because they simply don't know. Then there is the person who is full of biblical wisdom but doesn't sound like it. They a have been bashing there head in with the bible quotes reverberating through there brain. But they still hurt. In that moment Pray for the Holy Spirit to take over. Request HIM to bind your mouth shut unless it is HE who is speaking. Inform HIM that you are going to do the same. You are going to BIND your mouth shut. So if HE wants to use your lips to quote a scripture that your friend just happened to have missed HE had better open your mouth with out you. This means if you speak it's all Holy Spirit and NO barf. But if HE does not open your mouth at HIS command. Then you just sit and listen and offer what ever comfort you can. Ask your friend if you can hug them. Or just do it. But focus everything you can on what they need. Not what you think they need. Be of service to your friend. Maybe what they need is some escape time. Offer to take them to a mini golf place, or just out for a walk. My self if the situation seem to fit I would ask. "When is the last time you got to step outside of this hurt?" "Will you let me do that for you" "I will take you out for a cup of coffee or whatever" " I just want to be the friend who is either listening because that is what you need, or the friend who helps a little with what ever I can do."

Remember "I" doesn't always displace YHVH. Sometimes it just means "Won't someone LISTEN TO ME"

Dirt

Dirt

A puzzling thought came to mind in the form of a prayer that as it fell from my mouth I began to wonder how deep it really goes. When those people whom HE calls HIS children feel at there lowest, and HE places those people with someone who goes out of their way to make them feel lower than dirt emotionally yet unintentionally, is it for the sake of revealing HIS goodness to them that they might see it. Maybe without the horrible contrast of the situation this broken heart can't see the blessings due to the agony that they feel.

I dare not go into detail because I don't want this to become an attack on anyone. That is not the point. But rather maybe some trial that you the reader are facing makes you feel like dirt. Try and look to HIM through the glassy tears in your eyes and look to HIM for the comfort that you wish would come. I know that as for me I desire something greatly and HE continues to say no. For what reason I am not sure. But the brokenness that comes with it is deep. And to be placed where someone thinks extremely low of you and says so regularly is a deep struggle. Finding reason is not easy. Sometimes we need to pick our heads up and look to HIM despite the pain of the unknown.

My unknown is my fear of loneliness. And I wonder if that is what keeps me away from my greatest of hearts desire. (blog "for my beloved")I want to be loved so bad I would give anything for it just about. I have realized that it is important to hold this love until it can be given to someone who can see it for what it is. But that is hard. I tried to give it to those who did not know what it was. Since they didn't know what this love that I have to offer was. They treated it like it was nothing special. Alot of guys say they love me seems to be the attitude. They have no clue that a man who wants to be a godly,man husband and dad is very rare. They have no idea what a man like this will do for them. So it leaves this man giving something of extreme value to someone who thinks very little of this most precious love. I guess what I want the reader to know is this. When the darkness of isolation sets in and fear is at its worst maybe that is when YHVH can reveal HIS light to you the clearest.

In closing I want to pray for someone who is special to me though I have never met her, never talked to her never chatted with her at all. I just watch her facebook and twitter accounts and the profoundness of the things she says amazes me. And I remember her saying something about be hurt by someone who should have loved her. My heart went out to her right away.

My YHVH I pray for Emma Kimberly, I pray that you will continue to grant her the peace in you that she knows so well. I pray that you would sometime grant her the desires of her heart. Father I pray that you would give her a husband that with her would create a relationship that reveals your true nature and love of relationships. I pray that Emma would be granted that gift that would reach the world and show the wisdom that a solid family is truly a gift from YOU and should not be taken lightly. I pray that you would touch her in the deepest of ways and continue to draw her ever closer to you. In the name of Yeshua Ha-mashiach Amen.

Going Home?

Going Home

Well I got some good news today. Not sure if it will pan out because there is alot of red tape but I have faith. A few days ago I prayed and asked YHVH to reveal the path that I should be on. The next step step in the process. I began an application to Knight Transportation. A short while later I got a call about an application that I had placed 6 months previous. The job is near the area where I want to live. There are many obstacles to overcome. I know that I can't do any of them on my own.
Faith and obedience are my strengths at this time. I for the first time in a long time, am choosing to believe that YHVH is willing to give his best. I know that as long as I continue to pursue His statutes and commands as my main concern His concern will be how He will choose to bring blessings. For the first time ever I am seeing the hope that my deepest of hearts desires may soon come to fruition.
So I am going to sit and wait to see what happens but I am also purposing in my heart that if this job falls through because I can't get these obstacles out of the way I will know that it is because He wants me in that place just a little longer.I will trust Him not matter which happens. All I know is that this road that may be opening is the beginning of my dreams coming true.

I am one.

The Election

The Election

I have never been overly big on politics. But I need to address this election from my point of view. I don't want my readers to think that I don't care. I just feel that there is a way of going about the correction of this nation and it is not by yelling and or whining about the political state of this nation. OBama was put into office because of a few reasons. First because the liberal agenda was willing to fight long and hard doing whatever it took to place him in office. Second because those christians who could have done something about it have so complacent over the last several decades that the time was right to do so. Christians have in to many ways bought into the lie that politics and religion don't mix. The fact is that they do mix just as science and the bible mix. If you set the bible as your standard science will follow the bible every time. But if you set science above the bible the integrity of the man or woman who does slips. So when the ideals of the scientist do not line up with the science that is bing explored because it proves that the bible is accurate you have someone who will make changes in science to suit them as needed.
The same goes for politics. If the bible is the standard in which a man or woman lives and they opt to believe the bible they will act on what they believe in office.
Example: The humanist movement did not want our YHVH and Savior to be the foundation of this country. So they began slowly infiltrating the government. The effects were seen to this effect in 1962. Though this was not the start of the problem it was the first symptom of it. Meaning that much had been done in the silencing of believers by the time prayer was removed from school. As time went on after prayer was removed the education of our children changed fairly rapidly. Soon the evolution agenda was being pressed into the minds of our children. (See Lies In the Text Books Legal DL, DVD Purchase) Despite the fact that many of the big proofs for evolution have been proven either fraud or mistake, the educational system still uses it. This was a growing process starting many years ago. It helped to teach the children of those days that maybe YHVH didn't create the world but maybe a a big band did. Putting doubts into the minds of those children. Those children are now todays political movers and shakers. And as a result they feed the beast that keeps them from facing the fact that we are accountable for our actions to The Creator. And the symptoms of the last few years have been shootings in the public school system. These children believe we are nothing more than animals. And as a result they act like animals. If a wolf does not like what another wolf does a fight will break out and that fight may end in the death of one of the wolves. This is how nature runs. But it is NOT how people are to run. We have rules to guide us. We have absolutes to cling to. But when those are removed the wild animal comes out and people get killed.

Obama was placed in office because YHVH placed him there. Why did He do that. Because most of this nation wanted it in one form or another. Either they wanted it because they believe in what he is pressing for or they wanted through inaction when the time to fight the battle was at hand. What we need right now is men and women who will seek this promise

II Chron 4:17
14and My people upon whom My Name is called, shall humble themselves, and pray and seek My face, and turn from their evil ways, then I shall hear from the heavens, and forgive their sin and heal their land.

Thats the promise thats the condition to meet the promise. So I might be not be yelling at the TV about something some politician said. I might not be blasting my opinion all over the net about what a scum bag this person or that person is. But what I am doing is what I know to do. Believe that YHVH promises are real. And dependable. So I will seek to turn from the sin of my past I cry out to Him regularly about our nation.

I Stand As One.

The Book

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The book will be in two parts. The first section will be an alegory. The second will be a self help type book. Either it will be two parts in one book or two parts in two books. Which ever will seem the more appropriate at the time of the completion of both. Both books will address the struggles of sexual addiction. The second part will deal with this struggle in a way that has never been written about in this way or the few books that are written are very hard to find.
The method that was used to end this addiction is the method I discovered of my own accord after reading many many books that really did absolutly nothing to aleviate the problem. If you are reading this blog and have had or still have any trouble or have been close to someone who has had this struggle please take a look at the pole below and give your thoughts.



I am struggling with how to address the cost of the book. I feel that a book shuch as this should be available to all who want it and sometimes price can eliminate those with a lesser budget to afford thins like this. However it is a well known fact that things that come free are often seen as worthless and treated as such. As you fill out this pole determine the value that this book would have to you if was able to set you or the person you know free from sexual addiction.

The Ciricle

The Circle

I was watching my facebook a little tonight thinking about odds and ends and I noticed this gal who had friend requested me and her photo likes. The first one I really had an appreciation for It was of a cell phone with a incoming call the picture is of the "white version"** of Yeshua and the buttons answer or ignore.

The next picture she liked was of a young woman flipping off the camera. To me I found this as being apposing views. And then I realized that most people who claim a belief in Christ don't live like they believe. So many people are chasing those things that mean something to them for the moment.

Isaiah 22
13Then see! Joy and gladness, slaying oxen and killing sheep, eating meat and drinking wine, “Let us eat and drink, for tomorrow we die!” 14

And for a moment they follow Christ. But the moment passes and they chase the things of fleshly contentment until the moment strikes and they see something cute about being a Christian again. But the moment again passes. It is heart wrenching to see these people running around in the circle. They have no clue that year after year their life is being flushed down the toilet with no regard to what really has meaning. I pray that someday that person finds the foundation of true faith and gets off the the circle and follows Yeshua.



** I have been in a few different churches with predominantly one race of people. I found out that in a mostly white church you have a blue eyed long red/blond haired Jesus. In a African American church the pictures on the walls show him as a large loving older black man. Yeshua was a Jew. He therefore was NOT white and not black and not Mexican or Asian looking. He was middle eastern looking. That was his nationality that is what he would have looked like. So any picture that depicts him in anything other than Jewish is a false depiction.

Blind Eye

One thing that has started to bother me more and more about reading the bible is how much people who claim to follow the bible ignore it. Most Christians of today don't give much thought to those who are less fortunate in this country. In most cases if a person tells their story the christian will recommend food stamps or something of that nature. I get so angry about this partly because of how many times it has bitten me. But also because of the stand the bible takes on the subject. Christians are so concerned with self they will either do the minimum or nothing at all. Yet on the other side of the fence, those who could care less about YHVH will often times give the most.

A little over a year ago I went to central Florida for a job with a Verizon franchise store. Finally my dream job was coming through. I drove 3000 miles for this job. When I got there I had the finale interview and was hired and I was so happy. Then it happened. Things started going bad. First day on the new job I was told I am so sorry I can't actually hire you. Corporate has decided that they may be closing the doors of this location within 60 days. Then I was told that my place to stay was no longer available. I found a new place to stay for a short time but that to fell through as well. I wound up sick as a dog in my car with 5 bucks in my pocket. And was staying in a Walmart parking lot. This was not cool. At one point I realized if I did not do something to keep my strength up I might die in my car. So I spent 3 dollars on yogurt and 7up. This lasted about 2 days. After that I had two dollars in my pocket and was so hungry and barely on my feet. I was scared and didn't know what to do. I pleaded with my Savior that I trusted Him completely. please provide for me. I had never felt so open and vulnerable to Him in my life. It was a scary place to be yet very comforting feeling that close to Him trusting Him with my all. I felt the conviction to spend one more dollar on a marker and then find card board. Which I did. I made a sign two hours later I had $50 in my pocket. My love for my creator filled my heart. I spent each dollar as if it was a precious gift. Not indulging in anything frivolous. As my money started to drop I realized this money was a help but $50 only lasts so long. So I went out again. And in about 2 hours again I had picked up another amount of money.
But I had also had one christian man come and talk to me. He asked me few questions found out I was a believer as well. In fact he knew I was not bluffing him because we had a very in depth conversation about faith. After that he said he wanted to help but did not feel right about giving cash. This is a popular Christian thing. They do not want to give someone cash incase they are strung out on drugs or alcohol. I have found because of the one of the Jim Staley videos that I have posted that this is a wrong attitude and wrong behavior. I knew I had picked up a few dollars and this small cash of food would help. I dug into my pocket and pulled out the wad of singles and a couple 5's as I straitened out the mess I got down to almost the last dollar and it was not a single but a twenty. Again I had picked up right around 50 dollars.

My question is why is it that Christians are less giving then unbelievers. The man who gave me food was great. But what about all the others who do nothing for someone on the street with a run of bad luck and nothing more. Why was there not a christian to offer me a place to stay? One Christian stopped. And that was all.

Why do Christians ignore the bible.
Proverbs 28
27 He who gives to the poor does not lack, But he who hides his eyes does have many curses. 28When the wrong rise up, men hide themselves; But when they perish, the righteous increase.

There is so much promise and command to give to the poor and yet all the churches send them away to take refuge under the protection of a government who hates their god so much they teach children at the earliest of ages that He does not exist. "Evolution" It is my thoughts that the churches today are sick and they sicken our creator. This verse proves that there are many curses that will be coming at American churches. With hundreds of verses giving command to help the poor the American church turns a blind eye. My heart bleeds for them. And my anger burns. Further YHVH's anger burns for him to say that he will curse something is a big deal. Especially something that is suppose to belong to Him.

Seek and You Shall Find

The bible lays out something very interesting in this verse.
Mathew 7
7Ask and it shall be given to you, seek and you shall find, knock and it shall be opened to you. 8“For everyone who asks receives, and he who seeks finds, and to him who knocks it shall be opened. 9“Or is there a man among you who, if his son asks for bread, shall give him a stone? 10“Or if he asks for a fish, shall he give him a snake? 11“If you then, being wicked, know how to give good gifts to your children, how much more shall your Father who is in the heavens give what is good to those who ask Him!

I will focus on the seek portion of this scripture. How often do you get frustrated with circumstances when you cannot find something that you know YHVH is leading you to. You may not even be sure what it is but you know He is leading you to something. I know in my case I find that at times I will get overly frustrated with trying to find the answers to what is going on in my life. One of my bigger questions is "What is holding me back from my beloved? What hinderance is messing things up? Whats wrong with me?"
And this can lead to deep frustration which can result in stupid outbursts.
Have you ever found yourself in a position where you are trying to figure out what YHVH is trying to get across and yet you feel as dumb as a brick because it just won't sink in?

YHVH once offered a man anything he ever wanted. After thinking it over a bit Solomon asked for wisdom. And he was granted to be the wisest and the richest man that ever lived. he wrote a few parts of the bible that are very intriguing to me. One of which was

Proverbs 25:2
2It is the esteem of Elohim to hide a matter, And the esteem of sovereigns to search out a matter

In the King James Version it says The Lord takes joy in hiding things.
I found this so enlightening. This means that those things that I am struggling to find are hidden on purpose. Sometimes as I seek things with a diligent meek heart I find myself drawing nearer to my creator. In this verse I find that I have been getting frustrated for no solid reason other than my own ignorant impatience. If it is hidden there is something to be gained in seeking it instead of it just coming clear with ease. Take joy in the hunt for those things in which your creator is trying to lead you to. I know that I sure intend to make this a new part of my life.

Broken Wisdom

In the last days I have been seeking understanding or wisdom on many things. Such as getting my business off the ground before it fails and potentially finding a job.
Tonight something happened in which I really cried out to YHVH. I am in a sitation that is really causing problems for me and those around me.

I am living in a very depressed area it has been severly depressed for abouot 20 years. Now mind you this is not my home this is where I am stuck at. I really want to go home. Home to me is Gulf Breeze FL. Its a little suberb of Pensacola. It makes me very happy there. So here I am crying out to YHVH becuase of something I did that I felt was wrong but I had no choice.
At least not a safe choice. As my heart lay breaking and my tears flowing, I asked Him what I had done so wrong to desrve this. You see I have been seeking somethings that most of my readers (not many) would disagree with. In my own life I have been seeking to follow the statues and commands of the bible. I am doing it for two main reasons. First becuase I love Him, and second becuase I do seek his reward or blessing. And in so much as my suffering I have been struggling with the why of it. Did I do wrong. Is the promises that are in the bible only meant for those who actually recieved the original message? The second one bothers me the most even though I feel the answer is no. So here I am sitting here pleading with Him about all this and He reminds me of something that happened yesterday.

As I am crying out trying to understand anything from Him that He might let me know in this suffering He remind me of her. And what bothers me about this the most is this. When I am broken and desperate for YHVH is when I feel He is the closest. But I also feel like His promise are the most real. What I am saying is for some strange reason when I am at my most vulnerable with my Lord and Savior I feel like He is always reminding me that the girl of my dreams will be given to me soon. Just be patient and trust Him. The girl is the desire of my heart. Every since meeting her my faith grows stronger just at the mere thought of her. If I look at a picture of her I feel the uncontrolable desire to go pray. What gets interesting is the more logical minded I get the more distant from my creator I feel. The more I feel that this dream girl of mine is only a pipe dream. The closer I draw to Him the more I feel like he tells me she is comming. Even when I am not trying to seek understanding about her. The closer to Him I feel in my brokeness the more I feel as if this blessing will be given and that I can trust Him for her. That is why I feel this blog should be called Broken Wisdom. In closing I want to send a msg to that someone if she ever found my blog.

You are my dream girl. You are the promises that are in the bible. No matter what has happened no matter what you have done I desire you as the only woman for me.
You see one day my dad asked me what was wrong. I told him that the one thing I wanted from Him was his blessing regarding you. I even said that I wouldn't sin with you. He answered, You may have my blessing regarding her as long as you don't sleep with her and you take the time to get to know her. This was a miricle to me. I pray that you will remember me and maybe one day want me in your life as much as I want you. With that said I will close this blog with LU. You know who you are dear one.

Restore the Strong Man

I haven't had the chance to read John Bunyan's book Holy War just yet. But I have spent allot of time thinking about the premise of the book. I have talked to a few who have read it and it is very good. It is one of the few novels I will read. 

I think about how this nation was taken down the brink of destruction because of its level of sin. I think about those that founded our country and who replaced those leaders. The strong men of this nation have been replaced with those who are sympathetic to the enemy and his cause. But this is not the only place that has taken a hit of removing the strong man. The strong man has been removed from the home. Some because of cowardous choice, and others have been removed by the changing tide of how we have been taught to view the men who were suppose to be the leaders and protectors of the homes. It is part of my belief system that men need to stand again as strong men. It is my thoughts that women should stand as the woman of Proverbs 31. That means that she is given lead of the house and goings on with in. And most importantly she is worth trusting to take this role seriously. But the men need to stand in the place of protection for her. He is close at hand to guide his children in the way of the YHVH. And they work as a unit to face each day head on no matter what it brings. The man is respected in all that he says and does. And the woman is honored, loved, and understood by him. 

I peter 3:7
 7in the same way, husbands, live understandingly together, giving respect to the wife, as to the weaker vessel, and as being heirs together of the favour of life, so that your prayers are not hindered. 8to sum up, let all of you be like-minded, sympathetic, loving as brothers, tenderhearted, humble-minded, 9not returning evil for evil or reviling for reviling, but on the contrary blessing, knowing that you were called to this, in order to inherit a blessing.


It is my prayer: Restore the strong man to his place of strength, place a woman of honor by his side for her counsel of wisdom.
In the Name Of Yeshua Ha'Mashiach Amen.

Let Me Not Be a Friend of Job

I feel fortunate that I currently am working for a guy who has no problem with me listening to audio on my phone as I do the tasks that he has set me to. It has aloud me to listen to the bible for hours on end. Today I listened to all of Job. This is not the first time I have been through Job but I did want to make something new of it. So I was on the look out for something different than the last time. 

The part that stuck out right away was jobs friends. Many of Jobs words were deep questions toward YHVH. Some of his wordings were rather aggressive. I understand why he felt what he did as I have lost many of the same things that he did.  But I also listen to how YHVH handled him at the end. And I wondered how much of those bitter words were prompted by so called friends. 

I realized that I did not want to be a friend like that. I asked in prayer that I would never be a "friend of Job" to someone I knew. Many times I have been treated in similar fashion by those who thought they knew more than I. They came at me with platitudes a plenty. 

I pray now that I would sit beside my friend who lost all of his children. I pray I would tear my clothes and throw ashes and weep bitterly for the suffering that has been endured. I desire to sit with my friend speaking little but do all that can be done to cary the burden just a little. If my friends asked me what my thoughts might be. I would say simply that my friend need a true friend. And would say nothing more for fear of being a big mouthed fool. 

Sometimes when we meet with those in suffering action is needed if it can be relieved by us. But if it is a pain that can't be relieved then it should be endured with. Shutting our puke hole lest we vomit our self righteousness all over our friends who suffer. I lost a friend over this very thing. He did not understand my words were sorrow and little else. I lost my children and a friend as well. I miss you Cody.

Choose Your Leader Wisely

Mat 7
 15“But beware of the false prophets, who come to you in sheep’s clothing, but inwardly they are savage wolves. 16“By their fruits you shall know them. Are grapes gathered from thornbushes or figs from thistles? 17“So every good tree yields good fruit, but a rotten tree yields wicked fruit. 18“A good tree is unable to yield wicked fruit, and a rotten tree to yield good fruit. 19“Every tree that does not bear good fruit is cut down and thrown into the fire. 20“So then, by their fruits you shall know them – 21“Not everyone who says to Me, ‘Master, Master,’ shall enter into the reign of the heavens, but he who is doing the desire of My Father in the heavens. 22“Many shall say to Me in that day, ‘Master, Master, have we not prophesied in Your Name, and cast out demons in Your Name, and done many mighty works in Your Name?’ 23“And then I shall declare to them, ‘I never knew you, depart from Me, you who work lawlessness!’24“Therefore everyone who hears these words of Mine, and does them, shall be like a wise man who built his house on the rock, 25and the rain came down, and the floods came, and the winds blew and beat on that house, and it did not fall, for it was founded on the rock. 26“And everyone who hears these words of Mine, and does not do them, shall be like a foolish man who built his house on the sand, 27and the rain came down, and the floods came, and the winds blew, and they beat on that house, and it fell, and great was its fall.” 28And it came to be, when יהושע had ended these words, that the people were astonished at His teaching, 29for He was teaching them as one possessing authority, and not as the scribes.

As you read through this verses you can see that we are given permision to be fruit inspectors. Looking to a persons fruit to determine if they are being sincere or decietful. This is not to say that we can go harpooning those who we finding lacking in a moment. However it can help us to determine someone that we should trust as our spiritual leader.  

The other day I went to a church in the town I am currantly living in and stayed for a sermon because I was invited by a new found friend. Something happened in the second half of the sermon in which I had to chose to never return to that church again. First I show you what I was looking for and second I will show you where this pastor was lacking.

Gal 5:
22But the fruit of the Spirit is love, joy, peace, patience, kindness, goodness, trustworthiness, 23gentleness, self-control. Against such there is no Torah.

Kidness, peace, gentleness. These were the things I would have thought I would have found. But alas I did not.  For he spoke of a man who came to him saying pastor pastor did you hear what the baptist preacher said it was so interesting to me. And the man came to the pastor again and said pastor pastor the pentacostal pastor said this and I found it interesting. And the man came a third time and spoke the same of yet another congration.

But the Pastor was offended. (He admitted so) He wanted to ask the man. Why are you always running here and running there listening to all these men.  When you should be hear listening to me for I am the only one teaching you the truth..........

My heart ran cold when I heard him speak that way. I don't think he literally told the man that but he did think about it and he did mention the whole thing in the sermon I went to. I found two things in what he said that really ran in the face of fruit of the spirit. He compaired himself to the other pastor and said they they were not teaching the truth. Only He was. This I felt is pride. Pride is not in that list above. The next thing I found was that He had chosen 3 churches that also come under the bannor of Jesus Christ.
Meaning all 4 chruch proclaim Him as Lord and savior. So this pastor was teaching bitterness and resentfulness to his congragation toward other beleivers just becuase they do not go to the same church. Bitterness and resentfulness are No where even close to kindness, peacefulness, and gentleness.  In my dictionairy they are quite the oposite.

So here is something to check out. Do you find those traits in your life as a majority on a day to day basis? If the answer is not as much as you like. You probably are saved and yet you are also being kept humble becuase you can room to grow.  If this blog ticked you off well maybe you should really focus on Gal 5 and see where you are. 
The next thing is.  The person who you are putting in charge of you to lead you in the right spiritual direction do exhibit Gal 5 on a regular basis. Or can you find things quickly where your teacher is tearing down other believers?

If you are having some trouble finding a teaching that will sit in your soul as truth drop me a email. I have some information for you to check into you can weigh it out and see where Adonai The greatest Lord of all time takes you.

Durant In Yeshua

You Lied

This morning when you passed by someone at chruch or at work or maybe at the unemployment office and greeted that person. More than likely you lied to them. And more than likely they lied to you. Are you ok with that? When I figured this out a few years ago I wasn't ok with it.

How we as Americans lie every dayand we are so used to it we don't even notice. Then we discipline our children for lying to us. Yet they see us lie so often and it does go into their minds.

Did you know that lies are not just statements? They are questions as well. If a child is about to be caught in something wrong and they ask a question that missleads the situation away from them, is that not a lie? Now you can see the potential of a lying question. And this is where you are just as guilty as your children. Did you ask someone how they were this morning? Did you really want to hear about what was going on or did you lie? Mean what you say say what you mean. Next time you ask a person how they are inform them that you expect on honest answer.

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Love is

     What if love is a symptom of faith rather than some abstract command that leaves us struggling with the true definition of love?

     As I struggle to define what love is and is not I find myself looking to the word that the old King James bible used "charity" Charity as a love action tends to bring me to a place of doing something for someone with little to no self benefit. My pondering question is "can I be charitable to Adonai?" My answer would be yes. I find myself regularly doing things on a daily basis just because I feel like Adonai would have me to do so. Sometimes these things are for others that I would have just ignored and Adonai reveals to me do this quietly while no one is looking. Most times my response is "only because I love you Adonai" And to me that means I am doing this act for Him alone whether it has affect on anyone else is not my concern. It is a reflection of my love to Him Alone. The deeper I find my faith growing the more desire to accomplish a obedience to Him that is only seen by Him.

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