For the last 5 years I have felt convinced that in order to find the love of my life the battle would be won in prayer. I did not realize just how true this thought process was going to prove to be. When you want to protect someone as a man it is very hard when the only thing you can do is pray. In fact it is very humbling. As a man I want to go in and end the battle in a show down. But this is not the way Adonai does things. All I can do is sit and wait and pray. Many many days I sit in tears and cry out in agony for her. She has no idea how much I love her and the things I pray for her. Lately I have been praying that the Holy Spirit would fill her, her daughters, and her home. Some days are just so hard, all I can do is say over and over I trust you Adonai. And I chose to trust her though I have no idea what is going on right now.
The bible says that as a man we should lay down our life for our wife. Eph 5:25. One thing that I had to learn (the easy way some how) was just what that verse meant. It was revealed through the bible rather than failure. And I am thankful for that, Question have you ever washed someones feet? Would you be willing do it in private? Would you do it in front of your church body? 12 men sat around a table talking with Yeshua. And the bible says he washed their feet. John 13:14 Think about it. Could you wash someones feet in with your friends? As you ponder that thought you get the sick feeling of humiliation coming over you. I am confident that we are to do this for real. But I am also confident that it was also symbolism. Humble yourself for your wife.
Men have 2 ego's one needs to be stroked and built up. (Wife this is your job to learn how to do this the right way) The other ego is the one I want to talk about. That ego says ME & I (Beware of this link It is satire to the extreme to make the point) As men we can be so freakin selfish,prideful and arrogant. We don't want to listen we don't want to take the time reach out to her emotional needs. Why? Because if we do what then? I purpose when you engage your wife and listen to her for 5 seconds. Hit the repeat button over and over. 5 seconds 5 seconds 5 seconds. In other words shut up. Listen to her. If she needs you to do something, Consider what she is saying. If you don't want to do it because you don't want to do it . DO IT ANYWAY! If she is not asking you to do something. SHUT UP and LISTEN.
In this journey of mine hoping that this girl that I love so much will find that I am worth keeping. I have found that humbleness has been revealed through helplessness. She has been hurt so many times I could just sit and cry for her for days. But that wouldn't help much. So I pray. I pray that Adonai will protect our relationship. I pray that He will fill her with the comforter.John 14:16 I pray that she will be protected. And that she wont believe lies about her self. If you are married husband, Please read this book Power of a Praying Husband. Just know this lay your pride down be vulnerable with Adonai, admit you just don't know what to do. Then ask for Him to inspire prayer He will answer for her. Sit back and watch your Abba reveal just how much He cares about both of you. Above all don't give up She is worth fighting for.
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