Prayer Battle (She is Worth It Part 2)

         For the last 5 years I have felt convinced that in order to find the love of my life the battle would be won in prayer. I did not realize just how true this thought process was going to prove to be. When you want to protect someone as a man it is very hard when the only thing you can do is pray. In fact it is very humbling. As a man I want to go in and end the battle in a show down. But this is not the way Adonai does things. All I can do is sit and wait and pray. Many many days I sit in tears and cry out in agony for her. She has no idea how much I love her and the things I pray for her. Lately I have been praying that the Holy Spirit would fill her, her daughters, and her home. Some days are just so hard, all I can do is say over and over I trust you Adonai. And I chose to trust her though I have no idea what is going on right now.

         The bible says that as a man we should lay down our life for our wife. Eph 5:25. One thing that I had to learn (the easy way some how) was just what that verse meant. It was revealed through the bible rather than failure. And I am thankful for that, Question have you ever washed someones feet? Would you be willing do it in private? Would you do it in front of your church body? 12 men sat around a table talking with Yeshua. And the bible says he washed their feet. John 13:14 Think about it. Could you wash someones feet in with your friends? As you ponder that thought you get the sick feeling of humiliation coming over you. I am confident that we are to do this for real. But I am also confident that it was also symbolism. Humble yourself for your wife.

        Men have 2 ego's one needs to be stroked and built up. (Wife this is your job to learn how to do this the right way) The other ego is the one I want to talk about. That ego says ME & I (Beware of this link It is satire to the extreme to make the point)  As men we can be so freakin selfish,prideful and arrogant. We don't want to listen we don't want to take the time reach out to her emotional needs. Why? Because if we do what then? I purpose when you engage your wife and listen to her for 5 seconds. Hit the repeat button over and over. 5 seconds 5 seconds 5 seconds. In other words shut up. Listen to her. If she needs you to do something, Consider what she is saying. If you don't want to do it because you don't want to do it . DO IT ANYWAY! If she is not asking you to do something. SHUT UP and LISTEN.

    In this journey of mine hoping that this girl that I love so much will find that I am worth keeping. I have found that humbleness has been revealed through helplessness. She has been hurt so many times I could just sit and cry for her for days. But that wouldn't help much. So I pray. I pray that Adonai will protect our relationship. I pray that He will fill her with the comforter.John 14:16 I pray that she will be protected. And that  she wont believe lies about her self. If you are married husband, Please read this book Power of a Praying Husband.  Just know this lay your pride down be vulnerable with Adonai, admit you just don't know what to do. Then ask for Him to inspire prayer He will answer for her. Sit back and watch your Abba reveal just how much He cares about both of you. Above all don't give up She is worth fighting for.

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She is Worth it! (I thought)

when I wrote this blog sometime ago I thought I found a gal that I truely wanted and I thought she felt the same. The truth was that I was trying to bury something deep inside because I didn't have the faith to believe it to be true. You see my heart did not really belong to this woman that I had orignally posted about here. I was willing to except her because she was real. I could see her and talk to her. The other gal that truly had and still has my heart was not real to me at that time. And frankly I still struggle with that because I still can't talk to her or see her. but for those who re-read this edited blog to what is here now you will see some new blogs come up pretty fast if all goes well. Poetry and things like that. Most of which is about the woman whom I have decided that I am going to do all that I can do to remain holding fast in a faith patern until answers are giving. I may even post some of the wierd things that have occured between YHVH and I regarding prayer about this woman. Right now all I know is that I could not allow this blog to remain in the context that it was. I don't know if the wman who has my heart will ever be given me. But some of my blogs will reflect my feelings about her. These blogs will be show the orginal creation date which in most cases is some years ago. With a few that are more current. http://durantinyeshua.weebly.com

Heal "My" Land?

A couple months ago I started praying this verse on a personal level. Suddenly today it became a desperate prayer. You see I lost my children and wife to a divorce that was started over child abuse. I won't go into much detail but I will say that justice was not served by the court system. In the last few weeks I have been given something of a second chance with 2 beautiful little girls who have seen to much pain be put on their mother. Over the last weeks I have learned about what faith can do in a relationship that was began from the ashes of pain and rejection.

Today I have very little money and a job that pays by commission. Not exactly the way I wanted it. But right now I stand on this verse. I sit quiet and wait for YHVH to provide. In fact I look to my "Papa" to reveal Himself. I look for His love based on the mercy that the bible says He has. In seeking His love by faith alone I have found it in a way that I did not expect at all.



2Ch 7:14 If my people, which are called by my name, shall humble themselves, and pray, and seek my face, and turn from their wicked ways; then will I hear from heaven, and will forgive their sin, and will heal their land.


I await the healing of my land. And while I wait. I seek to show Him my love.
Joh 14:21 Those who obey my commandments are the ones who love me. And because they love me, my Father will love them, and I will love them. And I will reveal myself to each one of them."

This is Important

This will be a list of fruits of the spirit, The question that should stand in your mind is this. Do you have any care about the following? If the answer is "not much" maybe it is time to ask Adonai who you are to Him.

Gal 5:22 But the fruit of the Spirit is love, joy, peace, longsuffering, gentleness, goodness, faith,
Gal 5:23 Meekness, temperance: against such there is no law.
Gal 5:24 And they that are the Messiahs have crucified the flesh with the affections and lusts.

1Pe 1:5 Who are kept by the power of YHVH through faith unto salvation ready to be revealed in the last time.
1Pe 1:6 Wherein ye greatly rejoice, though now for a season, if need be, ye are in heaviness through manifold temptations:
1Pe 1:7 That the trial of your faith, being much more precious than of gold that perisheth, though it be tried with fire, might be found unto praise and honour and glory at the appearing of Yeshua the Messiah:
1Pe 1:8 Whom having not seen, ye love; in whom, though now ye see him not, yet believing, ye rejoice with joy unspeakable and full of glory:
1Pe 1:9 Receiving the end of your faith, even the salvation of your souls.
1Pe 1:10 Of which salvation the prophets have enquired and searched diligently, who prophesied of the grace that should come unto you:

2Co 6:4 But in all things approving ourselves as the ministers of Elohim, in much patience, in afflictions, in necessities, in distresses,
2Co 6:5 In stripes, in imprisonments, in tumults, in labours, in watchings, in fastings;
2Co 6:6 By pureness, by knowledge, by longsuffering, by kindness, by the Holy Spirit, by love unfeigned,
2Co 6:7 By the word of truth, by the power of Elohim, by the armour of righteousness on the right hand and on the left,
2Co 6:8 By honour and dishonour, by evil report and good report: as deceivers, and yet true;
2Co 6:9 As unknown, and yet well known; as dying, and, behold, we live; as chastened, and not killed;
2Co 6:10 As sorrowful, yet alway rejoicing; as poor, yet making many rich; as having nothing, and yet possessing all things.

2Co 8:7 Therefore, as ye abound in every thing, in faith, and utterance, and knowledge, and in all diligence, and in your love to us, see that ye abound in this grace also.
2Co 8:8 I speak not by commandment, but by occasion of the forwardness of others, and to prove the sincerity of your love.